Please note (TW): Intermittent reinforcement is often a tactic used in abusive relationships. The following article will mention forms of emotional abuse in relationships. It is also worth mentioning that I am in no way a psychologist; I’m just someone who’s struggled with intermittent reinforcement in relationships before, and wanted to share my story in case it could help someone.
I met Dylan in a sandwich shop on a snowy afternoon in Toronto. With a charming accent and a mop of brown curls, I was instantly smitten. Lunch after lunch, even though it cost a fortune, I visited the sandwich shop for a chance to speak to the handsome man who worked there.
After six weeks, he finally asked me out. From then on, things happened fast: we became boyfriend and girlfriend, moved in together, and planned a future living in another country, all within the span of six months or so. It was my first truly serious relationship – I was 22 – and I was so excited to finally have someone to introduce to friends and family, to plan out holidays with, and to share my life and all its ups and downs.
And although Dylan and I stayed together for nearly three years, lived in three countries together, and even discussed marriage and children, I always had a worrying thought lingering in the back of my mind: I don’t think Dylan is very nice to me. In fact… I think Dylan is really, really mean to me most of the time.
I didn’t understand why I thought that: didn’t Dylan bring me flowers? Didn’t we have the same goals in life? Didn’t we laugh until our stomachs hurt? Didn’t he tell me I’m beautiful? Didn’t he call me the love of his life?
It was only years later, well into my thirties, that I understood the emotional roller coaster of the relationship with Dylan. That I recognized the hot and cold, the sweet and the sour, the constant desperation for attention and the incredible relief that followed when he finally said or did something kind.
I can look back and see just how clearly it was an example of intermittent reinforcement in a relationship. It took me a long time to get here, but once you understand what intermittent reinforcement is, and how it might be affecting your relationship, I knew that I would never again stand to be in another relationship like it.
What is intermittent reinforcement?
I’m not going to lie, I sometimes feel like a phony writing about dating and relationships, because in the grand scheme of things, I haven’t been in very many good ones. For most of my twenties, I was in relationships that always seemed so dramatic; these relationships were defined by very high highs (think travelling the world together, watching sunsets on foreign beaches) and very low lows (think being cheated on, or being ghosted after three months).
And while I am not saying that I was an angel in past relationships, either, I do recognize that I dated a few men who used intermittent reinforcement, whether or not they understood what they were doing.
So what is intermittent reinforcement, and how could intermittent reinforcement be affecting your relationship?
Intermittent reinforcement was widely established in behavioural psychology when psychologists C.B. Ferster and B.F. Skinner published their book, Schedules of Reinforcement, in 1957. In that revolutionary work, their findings proved that organisms – everything from rats to people – could be reinforced using different schedules, and that those schedules would produce different behavioural outcomes.
We all know how reinforcement works. When we’re trying to train our dog, for example, we use positive reinforcement. You say sit, the dog sits, and the dog gets a treat. The dog soon learns that if she sits, she’ll get a treat. Ergo, she sits when you ask her to sit.
But here’s where it gets interesting: continuous positive reinforcement often leads its subjects to grow bored. B.F. Skinner discovered that rats pressed a lever for treats more consistently when the rat didn’t know whether or not a pellet would be produced. Isn’t that wild? The rat became more obsessed with pressing the lever when it didn’t know the outcome, even more so than when it always knew it would get a treat.
We see this all the time, of course: one only needs to think of a slot machine or even a game of solitaire to know that we love taking our chances again and again, even if we’re not sure we’re going to win anything at all.
But why am I talking about dogs and rats and slot machines? Because intermittent reinforcement – that is, when rewards are given out inconsistently and infrequently – is an extremely powerful tool of manipulation. It is used constantly in abusive relationships, and it has the ability to make someone feel bonded to the person who is emotionally abusing them.
Intermittent reinforcement is all around us, and chances are, we’ve maybe even been in a relationship where it was used.
A romantic dinner after days of ignoring your calls and texts.
Flowers and compliments after an evening of name-calling.
Telling you you’re the love of their life after a frightening bout of rage.
The three years I spent with Dylan were fraught with ups and downs. He would scream at me, throw my belongings out the window, slam his fist into the wall beside my head. He’d call me stupid, ugly, fat, worthless, tell me I was lucky to have him because nobody else in their right mind would ever date me. He’d get drunk and fly into uncontrollable rages, even once flipping a marble table and breaking my friend’s foot in the process.
But he was so cute! And people liked him! And he was so great with kids! And he’d bring me flowers and chocolate and watch my favourite show with me and call me sweet nicknames and talk about our future kids and do silly dances and cuddle and, and, and…
I felt like I was constantly playing the game of “he loves me, he loves me not”.
Intermittent reinforcement has the ability to manipulate us into thinking that the relationship could be so, so good all the time – that we could always have those romantic dinners and flowers and compliments and silly dances and cuddles – if only we figured out what we had to do to consistently deserve them.
When I was with Dylan, I was constantly pressing the lever, hoping for that treat. I’d wear the dress he liked. I wouldn’t bring up my differing opinions. I’d cook his favourite meals. I’d never hang out with my friends without him. I’d keep the apartment as tidy as I could. I’d suppress my tears and my anger and my heartbreak, putting on a smile even after he’d tell me the meal I made had too much spice (“You ruin everything”), or that he didn’t like the way I made the bed (“You’re so useless”), or that dress he used to love is now making me look fat (“Frankly, I’m embarrassed to be seen with you looking like that”).
There is a lot of talk of cycles when it comes to abuse, a continuous loop of rage and manipulation that’s often followed by loving behaviour. When we’re the victims in that abuse cycle, we’re desperate to get back to the loving part of the pattern, the “honeymoon phase” if you will. We’ll do anything to get there, addicted to the hope that we’ll get a reward if we only work hard enough at the relationship.
Lever, no treat. Lever, no treat. Lever… oh! Today he told me I looked nice. “See?” I’d tell myself. “He really is a good guy. He really does love me.” It’s as if I was gaslighting myself into believing I was overreacting, that I had blown his emotional abuse out of proportion. I’d cling to any sign of kindness – even a pretty standard text from him like, “How is your day going?” – and try to use it to negate all the awful things he said and did to me. I turned into an incredibly insecure, anxious person, and unfortunately that carried through most of my relationships in the following decade.
Why is intermittent reinforcement so dangerous in relationships?
It should be obvious by now, but intermittent reinforcement is not healthy in relationships. The hot and cold thing? Nobody wants that in the long run. Sure, maybe the highs are indeed very high, but at what cost? An abusive relationship, whether it is physical or emotional, is not a healthy relationship. Period.
Scarily enough, when I googled intermittent reinforcement, I came across a lot of websites that promote it as a powerful dating tool to get anyone you want to fall in love with you:
Be incredibly nice to her, and then don’t call her for a week. Tell him he’s the most amazing man you’ve ever met, but then tell him you’re not sure if you want a relationship with him. Buy them a copy of that book you talked about, but refuse to introduce them to your friends because “they’re just a little immature”.
These are all examples of using intermittent reinforcement to confuse and manipulate the person so that they work even harder to please you. For the record: these are examples some websites give when you actually DO want to be in a relationship with the person. These same websites recommend negging (when a person makes a backhanded remark in order to undermine their confidence and increase the desire to have the person’s approval) as well as a host of other pretty despicable dating “tips” for pick up artists. It’s the oldest game in the player handbook: play hard to get. Ignore them, and they’ll fall in love with you. Give them reinforcement sporadically, and they’ll be begging for more.
We see intermittent reinforcement in movies and other media all the time. Person A treats Person B terribly even though they secretly love and care about them. They tease, annoy, belittle, but in the end, they are seen riding off into the sunset together.
And I mean… if you want to live your life manipulating people’s emotions and CONFUSING THEM INTO LOVING YOU, I have nothing but pity for you, because you’re a piece of shit. Personally, I’d rather, oh I don’t know, be nice to someone and have them be nice to me back and learn about each other a lot until we fall in love and don’t resort to trickery to make them want to be with me? No? Just me?
So what do you do if you’re in a relationship with intermittent reinforcement?
If you feel as though you’re in a relationship with someone who is using intermittent reinforcement against you, whether they’re aware of it or not… firstly, I am so sorry. It is awful, and painful, and heartbreaking. I know what it feels like to try so hard to make things better, to feel in constant fear of saying or doing the wrong thing, to not understand why they can be so terrible to you one day and so loving the next. I know what it feels like to be so incredibly uncertain of how my partner feels about me, even when he’s lying next to me at night in our own bed in our own home.
For me, the first step to getting out of the relationship with Dylan was talking to people about it. I stopped hiding the truth from my family and friends, and started to tell them honestly what was going on. They had already started to suspect it, of course; they had been witness to it often. To finally express myself and tell my loved ones what was going on made it easier to imagine a life without him.
Similarly, I strongly encourage reaching out to a therapist; even though I am in a very happy relationship now, I still see a therapist to work through past issues such as this one, and it helps immensely. A therapist can help you work through the realities of your emotional abuse, and can help ground you. The first time I saw my therapist and talked about the issues I’d had in past relationships, she looked at me with utter sincerity and said, “Wow, that must have been so difficult.” She told me I had every right to be angry, and every right to feel sad, and every right to have it still affect me, even ten years later. It was such a relief to hear someone say that to me, and I continue to swear by therapy.
In the end, I can’t tell you whether or not you should break up with your partner, but I can tell you this: you deserve so much better. You deserve to be loved fully, and to love fully back. You deserve to feel free to express yourself without fear. You deserve someone who wants the very best for you, someone who won’t play games or manipulate you. You deserve someone who regularly tells you or shows you that you are worthy, and admired, and respected, someone that doesn’t confuse you or leave you feeling constantly uncertain and insecure. And yes, you deserve someone who brings you the damn flowers just because you’re awesome, not as an apology.
In the end, after years of dealing with the uncertainty, I broke things off with Dylan. I finally got the confidence to end the relationship, and I told him exactly why I was doing it: I was too tired of the emotional abuse. Too tired of never feeling good enough, or pretty enough, or intelligent enough, or capable enough. Too tired of wondering what I could do to be “better” in his eyes, to gain his approval. Too tired of never knowing what I’d get if I pressed the lever.
His response? In the ultimate move of intermittent reinforcement – the ultimate reward – he told me he had planned to propose that summer. I took my suitcase and left.
Over the next few months, Dylan tried everything to get me back: he sent emails to my friends and family, he wrote love letters, he was dripping with charm and compliments whenever I ran into him. One night, out with a group of friends, I ran into him at a bar. He asked me to dance. I told him that I had just met someone else. He took his beer and dumped it over my head. Needless to say, he hadn’t changed, and I had finally moved on.
Today, a decade later, I am in a very happy relationship with a wonderful man. We argue occasionally, of course, and we don’t see eye to eye on every single thing. But no matter what, there is respect. There is kindness. There is an understanding that we are in this together, and that we love each other very much. There is security that he has my best interests at heart, and that I have his.
It may feel like you’ll never break the cycle of intermittent reinforcement in your relationship. Or that today was a good day, so maybe tomorrow will be good, too. Again, I can’t tell you whether or not to break up with someone. But I can tell you that there is so, so much more out there. That there is love that doesn’t have to come with pain and confusion. That – trust me on this – there will be someone who will bring you the treat without you even having to push the lever.
I am fully aware that I have not touched on violent relationships, as I do not feel that I have the knowledge to write about this topic. I also understand that abusive relationships can be very, very dangerous and frightening. If you are in an abusive relationship of any kind, I urge you to reach out to a helpline if it is safe for you to do so. Here is a list of domestic abuse hotlines you can contact, including USA, UK, Canada, Australia, and more. You are not alone, and there are people who want to help you.